In The Now

Thoughts, Stories, How-to, and How-not-to

Beginnings and Endings

Late in 2005, I was restless. I was working at Halliburton and looking for a way out. I was happy to be employed, but every day brought problems that were urgent and boring, and problems that were important but beyond my meagre abilities.

I was in a management position, knowing exactly how unprepared, inept, and disinterested I was.

I’d applied to a number of tech companies in Edmonton — in fact, there are quite a few that I haven’t given a thought to since my Halliburton days, but that do come up from time to time and remind me just how little I know about the lay of tech companies in the city.

A co-worker, Victor suggested that I apply at Intuit. I knew they were too good for me — I had no real programming experience and they were the Utopia of programming jobs. On the other hand, I’d applied everywhere else I could think of, so I gave it a shot and promptly forgot about it, going about my days in mind-numbing fashion.

They called me in February, asking if I was still interested in interviewing for a position. I said yes and dove into a book about interview techniques.

Kim and the kids went to Vancouver for Kim’s brother’s wedding. The dog and the cat stayed with me. The interviews went well, one with a “Talent Acquisition” person, and the next with the hiring manager, Jim, as well as a senior engineer. I made an impression because phone calls were made to my references and I was hired.

In 2008, I was angry. I was scared and I felt trapped and betrayed by the company I’d worked for. My business unit had dissolved in Edmonton and everyone was gone. I saw my departure from Intuit as the only rational path I could take. I couldn’t know if I was the next one on the block and that uncertainty made me very uneasy. Over the months after leaving Intuit, I would drive by the building and feel sad, nostalgic, and wistful. Taking the 68 bus from the transit centre, past Intuit, I would feel certain that some of my co-workers would be at the bus stop. None of them ever were.

In October, 2011, I was starting to feel apprehension. I was going to be out of work at the end of December and I had nothing lined up. I had no way to gauge the market or the likelihood of employment. In fact, the company I was going to be leaving, Haemonetics, had hired me on the heels of a six-month semi-employed period that felt like it would never end. So I pounded the pavement early.

Two jobs bubbled to the surface very quickly. there was a long-term contract with somewhat similar work to what I’d been doing at Haemonetics — plentiful but boring. The other was an opportunity at Intuit.

I decided on a six-month contract at Intuit. There was less certainty, but they really needed someone and they were really positive that I was the guy for them. I started there, flooded with good feeling. I was going back.

Six months went by in a hectic, sleepless blur. It took a couple of days to get up to full speed but once I did, I didn’t really slow down again until the end of April. Intuit offered me a two-and-a-half-month extension, along with the possibility of renewal. I accepted, but made it clear that I was looking for something long-term. I found it with POSP. I interviewed with them, they liked me, I liked them, and I gave my notice to my manager.

I felt a great deal of trepidation leading up to that moment. It’s never an easy thing to tell someone you’re leaving and I sat on it for a week because my manager was away. I kept it from co-workers because I hadn’t told my manager. That made me feel even worse. Everyone has been really cool with it, though, and as hard as it’s been to break the news, nobody’s made it harder than it had to be.

A week from today, I’ll be looking back on my first day at a new job. For now, though, I’ll mourn the one I’m leaving.

Lies in the House of Clean

In one of the many jobs I had after school, I worked the end of the main line at Flo Pak. The job was intense, mind-numbingly boring, and physically exhausting.

I worked there over the course of 8 months one year and 4 months the next. I worked with a good crew. They worked hard, supported each other, and got along really well. Until Cliff showed up.

I’m not talking about Cliff from Peer Pressure Works. Rather, I’m talking about the husband of our Quality Control clerk. I suppose it maybe doesn’t reflect very well on me being hired or on their hiring process, but they brought Cliff in to sweep up, tidy things and keep the factory organized. What he did was spend his days leaning on his broom shooting the breeze.

At first, I was kind of offended that this guy, this lazy guy would get paid 50 cents less per hour than I was when I was working so hard and he was not. I’ve since come to understand the limits placed on a body by age and I’ve learned not to worry about other people’s salaries.

I’ve come to the realization, however, that quite apart from the sight of a co-worker so obviously half-assing it while other people were busting their asses, this guy was responsible for killing morale in the plant.

One day, there were whispers about one girl who worked on the line with me. She was very competent and had bailed me out a couple of times when I was new, making sure my bottles didn’t pile up while I was putting boxes on pallets. She was also really outspoken. She would call out things she didn’t like about the place, and, quite often, she was listened-to.

The whispers were that she and the manager were having an affair. That the only reason anyone listened to her was because she had the manager in her back pocket.

To my shame, I listened to the whispering. I didn’t know whether it was true or not. I certainly didn’t spread the rumour. But I listened. And it bugged me, hearing that. It was one of those perception-altering moments. Up until that point, I’d only really thought of her as the competent person who was friendly and who’d bailed me out. Now, I had questions.  I had doubts. That was probably the longest work-day of my life.

At the end of the day, the quality of the team we had shone through. Word made its way back to the manager and he handled it well, if not as thoroughly as he could have.

He called a shut-down and pulled everyone together. He talked about the rumour and demanded to know who’d started it. Everyone apart from yours truly seemed to know that it was Cliff. The manager laid into Cliff and the girl even got a chance to say her piece. Cliff had his chance to talk and he rationalized it by saying it was the only way she could have gotten where she was.

I won’t deny that the manager had some fondness for the competent girl on the main line. We all did. She was charming, competent, and spirited. The jealousy that Cliff must have felt, the isolation that came with being on the outside because he was either unwilling or unable to do the work, drove him to start a ludicrous rumour about co-workers, both to build himself up and to tear a girl he didn’t like and who was critical of the work he was supposed to be doing.

I don’t know what reason the manager had for letting Cliff keep his job — maybe the QC lady asked nicely, maybe he thought he’d dealt with the problem and wouldn’t have to deal with it anymore. Heck, maybe he thought that letting Cliff keep his job was a worse punishment than unemployment. Whatever the reason, I would, knowing what I do now, have a very hard time not firing him. The chaos Cliff caused hurt morale and productivity and was hurtful out of nothing more than spite.

Until next time,

Liam

A New Start

A fictitious Account

Shock, startlement, disbelief. A trust had been broken. My site had been stepping out on me. Seeing someone else. I had no idea.

It wasn’t until I got a semi-anonymous e-mail from someone working at Google that I even knew, and that was only because she got infected.

We got her cleaned up and even went out a couple of times after that.

Then, my friend at Google wrote me again. The site was infected again. Bitch!

That was it. I pulled the plug and walked away.

But the memories of what we’d had kept pulling me back. I was a fool to think I could just walk away.

We agreed that treatment wasn’t enough. We needed to make it so no one else could get that close to her. We had counselling and we’re closer than ever.

The Real Story

My site has been compromised twice over the last few weeks. In order to add more security, I switched the account my hosting was on. It allowed me more control over my domain. The site has been wiped and the blog is empty, except for what you see.

I might, after I’m sure that the site is clean, reintroduce the old posts — some of them, at least. That’s a decision for another day.

All kidding aside, this pissed me off. I can understand a single, random attack. But to have it happen a second time within weeks of the last one? I’m giving this a go but if it happens again, I’m just as likely to pull the plug entirely.

Let’s hope that doesn’t happen.

Liam