Career choices are a funny thing. I wasn’t thinking about a career as a programmer when I decided to go to university. I wanted to be a journalist. I wanted to be a professional writer, and I knew that the University of Lethbridge was a school that had a journalism transfer to Saskatoon. Little did I know that the journalism program at the Lethbridge Community College was all that I would have needed for that — two years less and more chance I’d get in.

While I was looking through the calendar for the U of L, I started thinking about the science courses they had to offer. Being a Liberal Education university, I was going to have to take four sciences. I was intimidated by math, having been through the wringer in high school. None of the core sciences were appealing either. I realize now that I probably could have taken some Geography, Logic, and something else, and that would have been enough. But I got drawn in by computer science.

Truth be told, that story was written a decade and a half earlier.

Picture it: 1982 or 1983, and my dad brings home a computer. A Commodore VIC=20, to be more precise. It was a clunky thing. It had a tape player as its only storage device. But it was fun.

We played a lot of games on that computer, but I got my first real taste of programming. The operating system accepted BASIC commands and you could write a program right on the command prompt and execute it in front of your eyes. Never mind that I didn’t know how to save anything that I’d written. Everything was in main memory, and I’ll never forget:

10 print “Liam is awesome.”
20 goto 10

Of course, I was six or seven, so I probably wrote something else, but the premise was there, and I was hooked.

Sean had some programming book, either it came with the computer or he got it at school, but I spent hours typing up the sample programs that were in it. I don’t remember anything about how any of it worked, other than when I tried typing out a game that they’d printed out. It rendered ok, but there was no interaction. Honestly, I was probably eight or nine by that point, and the fact that I got enough of it right to even run anything was amazing.

Then, after high school, I finally invested some money in a 286 8MHz computer. It was hopelessly outdated, it didn’t run any games or anything like that worth running, but it got me back interested in computers. We’d had a Colecovision ADAM, but I hated that thing. If you didn’t load the tape drive or the cartridge bay, it loaded into a word processor. I’ll grant that that’s something I’d appreciate nowadays, but back then, it wasn’t BASIC, so I didn’t want anything to do with it.

When I invested some money in a more modern computer after the 286, one that had more than sixteen colours at its disposal, and a whopping 8 MB of RAM, one of the very first things I got was a copy of Borland Turbo C++. I wanted to learn how to program, so I also bought a book. Yes, it was C++ for Dummies, and yes, the stupid thing had the requirement of already knowing how to program in C, so I did the next thing, which was pick up C for Dummies and start learning that instead.

Granted, the book was full of stupid things like Microsoft-specific commands that didn’t work when I started sampling Linux, but it got me started down the path to loops, conditionals, variables, and functions. By the time I started the intro to programming course at university, there wasn’t really anything for me to learn. But I studied. And I asked a pile of questions. Any time the professor said, “Let’s just pretend that it happens by magic for now,” I knew I had a question to ask. And he was more than willing to help me figure it out.

I did waver in my commitment to graduating. I struggled pretty mightily with it, especially over summer when I had a job that was paying me right then. Couple that with a suspicion that maybe I wasn’t good enough, and you had the fact that I only intended to come back after summer once, and that was the year that I spent taking classes over the summer so I could finish up at Christmas instead of in the spring. By then, I knew my back was basically shot and there wasn’t much chance I could do a full-time labour job anymore.

Then there were three very demoralizing years after graduation, when I worked as a Document Control Clerk, then a supervisor. I got what I needed from that job, mainly money to start my life as a married man and experience in an office setting. I struggled, as I failed to qualify for job after job, not even getting an interview, wondering if it would make more sense for me to go back to school for something like millwright training, and just start over. It felt stupid. I’d gone the Student-Loan route through university, and if I was going in for more training, it would be even more time before I could start paying that massive debt-load down, not to mention how much I would have to pay to get certified.

Eventually, though, I got through the resume process, I got into an interview, and I did well. Well enough, at least, that they hired me. Since then, the foot’s been on the throttle and, despite a couple of setbacks, I haven’t really spent a lot of time looking back. If someone asked me how I identify myself, the third thing on the list would be as a programmer. And if they had something to say about identifying too much with career, I would maybe partially agree with them, but honestly, it is so much more.

Programming is more than a job for me. It’s a mindset. It’s how I go about solving problems. It’s how I come to conclusions about things. Thinking this way got me my second and third mortgages. It helped me to decide to become a contractor and also to become a permanent employee again. I’m not saying I’m an unfeeling computer. Impulse and passion come into it a lot too, no doubt.

I like building things. I like to see them come to life. When all the pieces fit together and it not only works well, but hides the complexity of what’s been built from the user, that’s a satisfaction I get from very few things — the two things I identify with before programming providing those. When I’m faced with a problem, I don’t panic. When I hit a setback, I don’t usually whine. I look for other solutions. And that is because I’m a programmer.

Y’know, in case you were wondering why I do what I do.

Keepin’ Busy

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I find myself in the possibly-enviable position of being really busy.

I mean, I’ve been busy before. It feels like I’ve been busy since I finished university, with maybe a couple of breaks in there, but now, I’ve got so much going on, it’s almost like I should outsource myself.

First, there’s my family. They command my attention, and I would be a fool if I didn’t try to give them the best of my time, if not the greater portion of it.

There’s the full-time job, working for Gamesys on various projects. That’s going really well, and I would let the other work-type things burn if they threatened what I have there.

Then there are the other work-type things. They’re what have me excited and scared. I’m worried that I’ve over-committed, but I’m willing to give it a shot to see what comes of it. Starting on Tuesday night, I’ll be alternating between two different projects, in order to both supplement my income and sharpen my skills in technologies that I’m unfamiliar with.

I figure that a month will give me what I need to know, whether this is a realistic thing, or whether I’m kidding myself and I need to pare down. I haven’t been this busy in a long time, and I’m looking forward to the challenge.

Why Tuesday? What’s so important about Tuesday? Tuesday is the first day in a month where I won’t be participating in the summer blog challenge.

Have a good night,


Onward and Upward

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Last night, I posted about starting to teach introductory programming to some homeschoolers. I’m really excited about it, and I’m looking forward to using my programming skills to do something more than just putting food on the table.

In the same line of thinking, I was pondering a way to make more use of the skills I’ve learned. My kids are going through the pain of learning their multiplication tables. I didn’t struggle through that because of a tape my mom got for my brother that he used to listen to every night. I thought about doing the same thing for my kids, and I might just do that, but on another track, tonight I started writing a small program that would quiz them on their multiplication tables.

I mean, the premise is pretty simple: a question pops up, they answer it. If they get it right, they get a congratulations-message. If they get it wrong, they get the right answer and a consolation. That’s what I’ve got so far, but I’m thinking about extending it.

Enter a name, and the program keeps track of you, either through a flat file or something else, but it keeps track of things like right vs. wrong percentage, longest streak, things like that. Then you pit your kids against each other, with your love at stake, and you can’t lose. You’re leveraging their competitive nature and natural insecurity for their own good.

Ok, ok, never mind the parents love thing. But it might be something to get them working at their multiplication tables.

In a week, I’m going to be teaching for the first time ever. I’ve agreed to teach a small group of kids an introduction to programming.

I love learning. I love teaching. I think that teaching has the opportunity to teach the person in the instructor role as much as it does the one on the other side of the line.

However, I have never been the biggest fan of school. I guess I was too impatient to get on with the real thing.

It should be interesting. I do a lot of teaching on-the-job, and I have ever since I had enough experience to have something worth sharing. There’s something about when the light goes on for someone. You see them get it, and it’s just this feeling that the world is somehow better.

I should be nervous, but I’m not. These kids have a real interest in learning, and there are definitely things that I can teach them, not just about a programming language or a particular framework, but about problem-solving, and the best way to do it with a computer.

I’m wondering how I’ll consider it a success. I also wonder how fast it will be able to go. I’m guessing that will go however it has to go, but I’ve never had to deal with someone getting it faster than someone else.

I guess what I’m saying is that I’m excited for this opportunity to learn something about myself. Can I teach this? I know they can get it, but am I the guy to give it? I certainly hope so, and I hope that this becomes something more advanced, and something that I can give to the homeschooling community.


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[Note: This cop-out post comes after a ten-hour day at work, Scouts night and a bed time that ended near 10pm. --l]

CSS layout for one form: 13 hours
Dropdown population from a properties file: 6 hours and counting
Javascript interactions between form fields: pending
Data validation: pending

There are certainly days that are more humbling than others.

Better post tomorrow.


Books and Books

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There are books, you know, the kind that you buy that have words in them. They entertain us, they give us knowledge, and insights. They are wonderful. I have that kind of book-buying problem.

This is after a massive, massive cull about a year before we moved out here. Most of my books are electronic nowadays.

This is after a massive, massive cull about a year before we moved out here. Most of my books are electronic nowadays.

Then there are the other kind of books. You know the ones. They often come with horizontal blue lines on every page, with a single vertical one on the side (or maybe one on each side). I don’t buy those books very often. As a contractor, I used to get one for each contract, or if I filled one, I got another. Yeah, those kinds of books. I also have a problem with them.

Fear the pile!

This is what I could find immediately to hand and doesn’t include my new duo tangs or the five or six big binders that I also use for the same purpose.

The thing is, when I go to start a project, either writing or programming, I generally start by scribbling some notes, requirements, or even some snippets, in a book. Since I have so many books, I’ve found myself plunging through them to find the things I’ve been trying to write.

To get away from this, I’ve started in with Duo-Tangs. I have one for this programming project I’m working on. I’m slowly transcribing my notes from this one book that has a couple dozen other things in there, including two partially-written blog posts that I haven’t ported over to a book that I actually use for that, some notes on the Telus AMS 2.0 project — don’t worry, I don’t have anything damning — and a bunch of notes from my first contract at Intuit. I think there’s some thirteen-year-old C code snippets in there for connecting TurboTax Desktop to Revenu Quebec. Don’t worry, that stuff’s so out of date that it doesn’t apply anymore. Not that it matters. You can get documentation to connect to them on their website, if you so desire. (Trust me, you probably don’t)

The duo-tangs have been serving their purpose admirably. However, I required something more central, a place to put appointments, work notes, things I needed to do, and to catalog all the things I have in various locations.

“But Liam,” you say, “you have a Galaxy Note 3. what are you using that for?” And you’d be right. But while I love my phone and use it a lot, I can’t get away from paper and pen. I’m addicted. Take away my physical reading books if you replace them with ebooks, but you can’t take away my paper and pen. I need them. It’s how I pull the thinkings out of my brain.

So, now I have something central. Following in Kim’s footsteps, but starting a little closer to home, I picked up a Franklin Planner.

Leather that shines!

8.5×11 size, so I can just punch some holes in anything and go!

It’s a little bare right now, having only a task-list pad and a blank notepad that I had lying around with all my other books.

Featuring the biggest pen loops ever!

We’ll see how long the task pad lasts in the planner. It’s a bit confining.

I also threw in a nice little notebook Kim gave me, that I’ve started keeping work notes in.

Front cover

Millions of little pockets!

Given that I spend all day on the computer, it’s nice to have something physical to use to keep everything together. Plus, it’s more chance to write.

Drowning In Support

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The lights were out at work today. I noticed that right away. I flatter myself that I am one of the best people in the world at noticing when the lights are out and they should be on. Heck, I turn lights on at home all the time.
Later on in the day, the lights came on. I must have been really focused on what I was doing, because I just didn’t notice. The lady who sits next to me did notice and commented about it.
“You know what? You’re right!” I said, without even a trace of sarcasm. The lights really were on.
I really like that about me, how I’m willing to throw my support behind someone who says something that’s obviously right. I mean, I’m sure she knew that the lights were on. Or at least suspected it. She did declare it, after all. But to have it confirmed, to have her observation validated by someone as good at seeing light as I am must have been a real feather in her cap. Plus, in vocally backing her observation, I must have gotten some real respect in the eyes of my peers who had been sitting in the room, not noticing how bright it had suddenly gotten. Imagine, I was the first to back her up.
You may now picture me leaning back in my chair, a contented sigh escaping my lips as I lace my fingers behind my head, the perfect image of correct contentment.

Coming out of University, the biggest snag was finding a job. Granted, the market was extremely depressed and tech companies, which had, until then, been basically printing their own money — in the form of stock — werte either out of business or extremely cautious in their hiring practices.

I remember the frustration of the job search and the fact that it took me three years of fruitless searching while I worked a clerical job, to find a position in my chosen career.

Now that I’m nestled comfortably in my career, I don’t spend a lot of time thinking about the difficulties that I had entering the industry. But a co-worker recently got me thinking about the catch-22 of the need and the gaining of experience.

Imagine a company that was comprised of experienced developers, maybe three or four of them. And every spring, the company hired three or four new graduates. In a pair-programming environment, the new developers would be innundated with mentoring, tutoring, and experience, whil delivering software. The first six months would be this. A crash course in Agile software development, source control, build automation, unit testing, and, of course, code.

After six months, there would be an evaluation, finding out what the new developer had learned. Provided they had made significant progress, they would be trusted with more responsibility — making design decisions, code reviews, unchaperoned implementation of features.

In this way, new graduates could get real work experience with a company, contributing to the deliverables, in a more sheltered environment. The job continues for two years, while the developer increases in ability and confidence. And at the end of the two years, the developers are sent out, developers in full.

I don’t know how realistic this business idea is but it is definitely a bit of a dream for me. I get energized by teamwork and mentoring and if I could make a go of it, filling contracts, while giving something back to the industry that’s been good to me, that would be great.

Yesterday, I talked about my desire to do my evening development while Lily goes to sleep and the steps I took to make that happen. Today, my new laptop showed up. Actually, we almost missed the delivery. Kim was heading out to run some errands and visit with some friends at the park. As she was leaving the subdivision, she saw the UPS truck turn in.

I wasn’t there, so I can only guess what happened. Kim gave me the basics but I doubt I’ll ever get the whole truth out of her.

Kim loaded the CD labeled “Chase Music” into the drive and the music started playing just as she completed the tire-screeching, smoke-emitting 180 burnout. She stomped on the accelerator, narrowly avoiding the old lady walking her small dogs. She hit the driveway going 70 and slammed on the brakes halfway up, stopping an inch away from the UPS truck. She unbuckled and leapt out the window, rolling to make Nick proud as she hit the ground. She sprinted up to the delivery man, bleeding from a roll-dismount that ended at the base of a pine.

The bewildered UPS driver handed her the package and a digital signature pad. She accepted the items, signed her approval, and handed it back. The UPS man didn’t waste any time in maneuvering his truck past the van. He would have asked Kim to move but, y’know, yeah.

So, putting that story behind me, my computer arrived today. I have wonderful pictures that I’ll show you. You’ll have to keep in mind that I’m no Peter Luu when it comes to pictures, showcasing my stuff, or deal-hunting.


I wish I'd gotten a roll of this THINK tape with the computer. I could have put it to such good use.


A first glimpse at what lies inside


Laptop, free of its plastic fetters

Note the pencil-eraser pointing stick that nobody else uses anymore.

Note the pencil-eraser pointing stick that nobody else uses anymore.

You will notice that the layout for the keyboard does not contain any stupid-shaped enter keys or half-shift buttons. Sadly lacking in a proper layout for Ins, Del, Home, End, Pg Up, and Pg Dn, though.

You will notice that the layout for the keyboard does not contain any stupid-shaped enter keys or half-shift buttons. Sadly lacking in a proper layout for Ins, Del, Home, End, Pg Up, and Pg Dn, though.

Since I was probably in grade 5, I’ve been a night person. Summer vacations, where my bedtime was largely unmonitored by my mom, who had a day job, saw me stretching bedtime again and again, until, by the end of summer, I would have to stay up all night and all the next day, just to try and wrench myself back into a proper day/night schedule for school.

Fast-forward to now and I see the same tendencies in Lily. I sit in her room at night so that I can be with her while she’s going to sleep. Both so that I can make sure she actually stays in bed and goes to sleep and because I know the near-crippling sense of isolation I felt when I went to bed almost every night, from, as I said, grade 5 onward. I want her to know that she’s not alone, I want her to feel secure enough to go to sleep, knowing that someone is there who loves her and that people who love her will be there when she gets up. Because that was the main source of my anxiety when I was a kid.

Hell, that’s my main source of anxiety now. I won’t go into issues of self-worth or fear of abandonment but they are there. And they only have the chance to manifest themselves when I’m alone. So, the times when Kim goes away with the kids, I don’t sleep so well. I shy away from going to bed and when I finally do go to bed, I twist the sheets around in half-sleep for a couple of hours before I get back up and start the day.

Normally, this isn’t a problem. Lately, though, I’ve started working from home in the evenings to help out a project… and also my bank account, if I’m being honest. But the problem is that evenings are taken up with bedtime, which leaves me with a choice, especially on rough nights like tonight, where sleep didn’t overtake Lily until 10:30. Do I stay up and do work, knowing it will take me until after midnight to get the things that I agreed to finished, or do I go to bed and sleep, getting up early where I’ll try to get things done before I go to my day job?

Both decisions have things to recommend them. If I stay up, then I am maybe a bit groggy in the morning but there’s a clear separation between the one job and the other job. On the other hand, if I go to sleep tonight and do the work tomorrow morning, it gives me a chance to rest and be at my best when I tackle the work. Unfortunately, both things have drawbacks as well.

If I do the work tonight, I risk what often happens to me. I get keyed up and don’t calm down for another hour or two after finishing. That leaves me with the undesirable prospect of going to work with 4, maybe 5 hours of sleep. I’m certainly not at my best in that scenario. On the other hand, if I go to bed now, I risk sleeping in and not being able to complete the tasks I’ve agreed to work on before going to my other job.

Fortunately, I’ve taken steps to mitigate these problems in the future.

Right now, I’m working on my Mac Mini, a desktop computer that’s stationed in the loft. It’s a fairly good computer. It’s underpowered and that leaves me sitting here, staring at a beach ball while its brain catches up with my fingers but it does a job that is sufficient.

When I started working from home, though, I ordered a laptop that is performant enough to be my dev machine. It blows the hell out of the Mac Mini — or any other computer I’ve ever owned, for that matter, and it can come with me into Lily’s room so I can do work while she goes to bed. She gets to sleep in the company of someone she loves and I get to not wait until she’s asleep to do my work. We both win.

That computer is supposed to be here tomorrow, and is likely to be the subject of tomorrow’s blog post. Which leaves me, still, with the unfortunate choice to be made.

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